1/4 - Finally finding peace again
Today was the first time since New Year’s (feels longer) that I woke up with energy, and positivity to get things done on my goals list. That past few days were just consumed with anxiety of the unknown but I finally think I’m starting to detach from whatever outcome because I realized that whatever I show up as is going to happen. The power is in my hands.
I can show up at someone that has a 9-5 and it growing on their socials. I literally don’t need to pick one. I just need to tell the universe that I CAN handle both. The universe only cares about my values, and that I’m not overcompromising on. I will still stick with my self-worth, and continue to have faith in the universe. For the time being, I just need to move like I have it all just like my goals. I need to jump to the last stage of my vision board literally to Dec 2025. Like I have it all and have found my peace with it. A salaried job that I’m happy at, family time, a huge social media platform, and I’m still working on the feeling of abundance. I don’t think I’m there yet, but I need to get there. I need to really internalize that one still.
But anyways, the rest of the day I just acted like I have 300k followers on IG, and grew 50k in one week, just like anci. For some reason, I’ve been resonating with her a lot more. Just because it feels like her dreams came true overnight, and it gives me hope that mine can too.
I made a schedule to move like my vision as well.
And then went to the gym too. I see a difference in my confidence at the gym too. Just seeing my growth is giving me motivation too.
And then came home ate some idli sambar, took a nap, went to ross with my mom, lolol went to a dispensary, got everything on my schedule and list done, popped a gummy, trying to get some work done, but most likely feel like I’m going to chill and go to bed.
This was my first time going to dispensary alone, and first time taking an edible at home. Just wanted to see what I would feel like.
Also, my content hasn’t been doing that well. It’s literally just going lower and lower, but I believe in myself. I know that I just need to continue the mindset I’m on.
8/10 - Much better in terms of energy, still need to do a little mental work but anxiety is much less than yesterday
Intuition - Maybe I was getting anxiety because I needed to come to the conclusion that I needed to show up as both (work + content creator). And that’s the answer I find peace in. I’m moving in the right direction as far a mindset too.
