1/22 - Overthinking

Today wasn’t as productive as yesterday. Ngl I did sleep in a bit and was off the schedule I created, but lately I’ve just been overthinking and having all these irrational fears.

Example: On my TikTok fyp I’ve been getting a bunch of skin cancer videos, so now I’m paranoid I have skin cancer and literally booking my derm appointment. A lot of people have said that the thing that comes up on their fyp are a sign to medical conditions. There are people that have found out about their conditions from it too. So now, I’m freaking out about that.

And then back to my point from yesterday of truly embodying me having that one thing I really want. I figured out I would do something if I had it today and then realized I wouldn’t be happy but I would still do it because it’s the right thing to do. So now, I’m all sad about that like damn is this supposed to be the rest of my life?

Overall, I did get everything on my routine done but all the overthinking is just killing me. Like why? I’m not even drinking coffee. Is it the green tea? Lol do I need to cut caffeine as a whole? Do I really need to get off of social media to stay sane now after I get my derm check?

Also, it feels like nothing is making progress. So I’m overall just confused on what’s happening in my life. Just happy that I’m at peace and although it feels like things aren’t progressing, they aren’t bad, and I’m overall happy.

So sometimes I really have to pull myself back to reality with all the overthinking. Like shake myself. I’m happy and literally at peace.

7/10 - All the overthinking was a lot. Literally creating problems out of thin air.

Intuition - I need to chill out, I’m sure nothing is wrong and I’m just creating problems because I’m probably getting “bored” since I’m finding ways to cope with anxiety