3/25 - Getting good with priorties

I woke up early again and dropped mom off. Went to a coffee shop to do some writing but ended up working on work stuff. Idk why but I feel like I have a lot to say, just the part of sitting down and writing is feeling a bit like I’m procrastinating.

Anyways, left the coffee shop, worked a bit more, and made some pasta before going back to pick up mom. I spilled some pasta water on myself and accidentally burnt my fingers.

Came home, worked a bit more, ate and then literally fell asleep on the couch.

I kind of am starting to feel a bit defeated with health again. My gut feels completely messed up, I get crashes every time I eat, and just don’t have energy. And my weight is like at a stand still.

I’m really trying to fight it but I feel like it’s really getting in the way of my life now. There’s so much I want to do.

My friend asked me to hang out today and I said no. Honestly, I’m getting so much better at just saying no, choosing to stay at home and make sure I’m prioritizing health. I knew If I went, I wouldn’t be able to get my 10k steps in.

My other friend is being weird. I’m pretty sure she thinks that now that I’m friends with my other friend again, she thinks I’m going to replace her. Ugh lowkey kind of drained from the drama and just want to leave her alone, but I know she needs love right now. I know she needs me to show up.

Also to address this energy situation, I think I’m going to start leaving my phone in another room.

Besides that spent my night watching a movie on netflix. My room’s a mess, so need to clean as well. But again energy levels just feel so bad.


6/10 - no energy

Intuition - I feel like my body is just going through a lot of hormone changes right now. It feels like a temp downfall, but I know I’ll figure it out.

energy:
80% - trying to stay energized and fighting my health
20% - drama with my other friend