11/15 - Is being assertive bad?

So digging deeper in the whole confidence thing cause now that I’m hyper-aware of it, it’s something that I genuinely am obsessed with working on.

First thing I noticed is that I’m super opinionated and honestly I actually am pretty confident on what I have to say. But I noticed that I always dumb it down by saying things like

”I feel like this is not the right thing to do.” or “I feel like we should do this instead”.

It’s my way of saying okay this is my thoughts on this topic, now do whatever you want to do. It’s almost my way of dumbing it down and making it more friendly to receive. Tbh I don’t even know where I got that from. Have I always been saying that? Or is it something I adopted when I thought I had a life crisis on being too reactive and not in my feminine energy?

How does an opinionated person even be in her feminine energy while being assertive and confident?

Or is this feminine energy bs invented for women not to be assertive? Idk.. all I know is that I need to be more assertive and stop dumbing it down but also figure out a way to give unsolicited advice lol, especially at work.

I also just need to chill out when talking to people. Idk why I feel like I need to always take charge and why I’m so uncomfortable with pauses.

I also can’t think on the spot and forget what to say. My brain just doesn’t work that fast.

At the same time, I feel like I also come across as anxious because I speak so fast.

overall… lol sos help. I need answers to all this stuff.

Anyways, today was another powerful manifestation day. I feel like we’ve had so many of those this year. And idk if I’m being a little negative but I truly wonder if I’m on the right path for my dreams. Just keeping hope for now.

8/10 - Feeling eager to conquer another challenge