11/14- Feeling a lack of confidence

For some reason I’ve been having a lot of anxiety speaking lately, and Idk why. I thought I overcame this a couple of years ago, and it’s honestly starting to get to a point where it’s haunting me. Literally I woke up from a dream today about something with confidence, and then I’ve been on the phone all day today between calls and catching up with friends.

It almost feels like this is the one thing that’s blocking my success right now, and I can’t tell if it’s a mindset thing, practice thing or a skill I actually need to develop.

And this is all crazy to me because I thought I always came off as a strong and confident person. I always knew what I wanted. But I think I’m finally starting to accept that I’m not as confident as I thought I was and that’s also where the anxiety comes from professionally and personally and now that I’ve accepted it. It feels like a hindrance I need to overcome.

Along with my daily practice speaking to the camera, I might actually take a class too. Let’s see.

8/10 - A lot of talking today