11/19 - Is astrology real?

Today felt a bit disappointing. I feel a little meh and skeptical towards astrology. Apparently, today was supposed to be a huge deal for a Taurus in the astrology world. A day that would unlock the portal to 19 years of luck. And apparently it’s been coming because all Taurus’ have been going through a period of growth in their life. That part is true, like I really have been going through growth. But yesterday was just so bland, honestly, I’ve been super exhausted lately so if anything, I just slept most of the day. I just had more expectations from the day, something like where the the unexpected happened.

And this has been getting me to question astrology and all. Like am I going through a growth period because I’m so fed up and it’s part of my life period or was there something truly in the stars. When I say “the universe is on my side” does that mean astrology? Was it really a big day for me yesterday and I just didn’t know? Like did something happen behind the scenes?

How much should I believe in astrological compatibilities? Like it is something where I know I’m not compatible with a sign so I almost self sabotage the relationship and just declare it’s not going to work out? And because I’m basically manifesting it’s not going to work out that’s why it doesn’t work out? Or was it truly because our astrological signs weren’t compatible?

Everything just feels so confusing. I feel like i’m the constant pursuit to almost “crack the code” to find loopholes to life. Almost if I’m searching for right answers for something. I feel like I have a hard time just accepting there are no answers and you just need to go with the flow.

Because if there are no answers? Wha't’s the point of mentors? like lol do they even know what they’re doing? or is everyone just going with the flow?

6/10 - A little disappointed and just confused.