11/20 - No expectations

Besides yesterday, I feel like I’ve just been moving through life without any expectations lately. And maybe that’s why I’m thankful and just appreciate the pockets of peace in every moment. Yesterday did leave me feeling a bit confused, but today I just decided to go back to my routine. I haven’t been walking my usual 10k steps, so I do feel a bit off. It’s become a crucial part of my day to just connect with nature, but it is starting to snow today and it did get a bit colder, so the outside walks might be at a halt for a bit.

I still don’t know how I feel about the universe, but there’s nothing I can do besides staying positive and visualizing because even the science behind it is that I’ll just rewire my brain.

On the other note, I do this have this urge to keep my distance from everyone for now and Idk where this is coming from. It’s like this urge to really be away from any triggers and just focus and hustle? Maybe I’m finally getting in the mindset to make my dreams come true.

For work - Idk I’m just not that motivated anymore. I feel like i’ve given way too much than I’ve gotten, and so now my heart is starting to move away from it. Part of me feels like idk how much longer I can do this. Like what am I supposed to do for the rest of my life. I don’t feel like getting another job. It’s definitely doing my own thing.

But overall, idk I just feel a little all over the place right now. The peace is starting to get shaken a bit.

Besides that, my mom’s cousin came over today so we had some company in the house.

7/10 - Feeling scattered