3/5 - Declutter

Last night, I decided I really needed a mental health day today or I was going to go crazy. I scheduled all my text messages for today morning to get rid of the anxiety of having to answer a bunch of people, and then put my phone on do not disturb with an exception to my emergency contacts. Put in a sick day at work and just tried to calm down from being so overstimulated.

After waking up, I needed to go to Walgreens to get milk, medicine and picked up some sweet treats. It felt nice, the sun was out and the birds were chirping, with rain drizzling. Walgreens took a little longer than expected, so came home and went back to sleep.

I also cleaned everything, put candles up, watched a movie and just shut down all communication.

While I was at Yoga, I literally was clenching the blanket so hard, like it was a way to release the guilt. I was feeling all types of guilt on anything wrong that I’ve done to anyone.

And then I tried screaming in my car also to release the guilt too. At this point, I’m trying to do whatever I need to feel better.

I kept telling myself that my old self feels guilty. If I showed up as my future identity, that version doesn’t feel guilty. She unapologetically does things because she knows what she needs to do.

Also, one of the things I’ve been praying for got approved. So very thankful for that, even though it was a bit screwed up, so it’s not completely closed out. But overall, the first step is done.

Last of all did my white saje cleanse too to reset the aura in my house.

5/10 - I really really needed the declutter day to help with my anxiety.

Intuition - My hormones are also high right now so might be feeling things from that too and its okay to release any type of hidden feelings to just purge it out.