3/23 - God’s timing
Lately, I feel like I have so much to say/reflect on but just putting it on a journal is getting overwhelming. Like am I even writing down everything I’m feeling.
The past couple of days have been so important in my life and just feel like a turning point that I don’t even think the words are capturing the importance.
I woke with energy but my back was just feeling sooo tight, and it hurt. I was going to go get a massage with the friend that’s going through a breakup, but she bailed, so I still got one.
The amount of knots I had was insane, but also I haven’t gotten a massage in a year and have completely forgotten how my body feels without knots. The change in my posture is insane. I finally feel like I can sit straight. Definitely need to go in for a couple of more sessions.
Today was kind of crazy mentally too - I literally helped a cousin of mine come out of depression. And I know that’s a big statement but I really did. He asked me for a Dil Mil discount and said “it’s rough out there”, and idk what came upon me but I was like “that’s the number 1 mistake you’re making” and then I kept debating if I wanted to mind my own business or tell him he needs to heal. I asked myself what would my highest version do and that was to have a convo and he literally opened up to me and told me he literally broke down today and told his parents he was depressed and that I literally told him what he needed to hear about healing/trauma from his life. I told him aspect that I think are the highest version of him and he literally was crying because he’s also a pessimist and I showed him why the bad things in his life needed to happen.
I did this because that’s what the highest version of myself would do. And I literally keep getting messages of gratitude that I’m changing people’s lives. I think the universe is doing this to show me how much people actually need to hear the words I have to say. I don’t even think I’ve processed it tbh. Like giving someone a glimpse of hope from depression is huge, helping my best friend get out of her limiting beliefs is huge, helping my other best friend get out of her darkness with her family is huge, and encouraging people to make content and embrace their confidence is huge, being the reason behind my childhood best friend getting courage to start youtube is huge.
Like clearly my words have so much power and I’m not just being delusional. God is showing me all this to give me motivation and strength. Recently, it’s like god sends me as people’s prayers when they need hope. And that literally makes me cry. Because this being my calling as to be the biggest blessing in life. Literally the fact that God send me as his angel into people’s lives to get them out of darkness. Just through words, and that’s insane.
And again God’s timing in all this, I decided to step up, stoping being small, and say what I needed to say to people. He messaged me after I decided this, he said something that triggered me and inspired me to help him, he was so down bad today that he became so vulnerable, and I have gotten to a point of optimism that I was able to help him. The timing of all this is insane.
Got my 10k steps in as well!
9/10 - My back hurt, and I feel like I wasn’t as productive, but I helped someone that really needed it, thank you god for choosing me. Also saw 11:11 and 1:11 again.
Intuition - I’m literally changing people’s lives with my power to speak and words. People need to hear what I have to say. I literally need to keep going and maybe even double down.
