3/22 - Feeling drained
Last night I fell asleep at 9pm, and initially when I fell asleep so early, I thought it was because I finally felt at peace for posting and starting. But then I woke up again at 12pm and couldn’t sleep until 4am. Initially, I had high hopes to wake up early and go to a coffee shop and work and just have a productive day overall.
But I woke up so sleep deprived, that I dropped my mom off and came home to go back to sleep. Even after picking her up, I literally just felt like I had no energy to do anything. I was just meaninglessly rotting in bed.
That’s when I texted my best friend that this happens every time I post or do something courages. It’s like people suck your energy even though a digital screen. And last time this happened after the wedding, I was literally out until a month. But thankfully, now I know everything I need to do to restore my energy. So after taking a nap, and somehow making it to shower, I did my cleanse and literally after 30 minutes, I started feeling better.
Crazy how all this works with nazar and energy but that also just gave me inspo for another post. So while putting my headphones on, dancing, and cleaning my room, I would also get spurks of creative energy and go write away on my notes.
They’re sucking your energy because they feel your energy and need it. Which also means you’re saying/doing something meaningful that’s resonating with them. And from a marketing perspective, that’s actually the hardest metric to achieve.
So Don’t stop. Even more of a reason to keep going because you’re doing something right.
The post is “let’s talk evil eye”
Right after writing that, of course, I also started seeing things of how this girl got burnt on her wedding day because of the evil eye. I feel like I need to sleep on this a couple of days because it is really “evil” or is it what I said where they suck your energy because they need it.
I also think that doing something/not doing something because of fear is never the answer because it doesn’t fit in with the highest version of yourself. So where does the evil eye fit in this, where does simple jealousy fit in this and more so just energy?
If doing a white saje cleanse really works for me, is evil eye actually real and I just need to have something on me at all times that would combat it? Because I can’t just live in fear, so there has to be some sort of solution to this.
On the other note, it’s crazy how when I go on Dil Mil’s IG, the energy is completely different. It’s a bunch of people who aren’t scared to post and are living their best life one after another. But I believe there’s a reason why I’m not in love with NY. I think my calling is to stay in Chicago and uplight the people in Chicago/other cities other than chicago. My audience doesn’t feel like people are already chasing their dreams, it’s people that need a push/sign too. But also crazy to know environment is EVERYTHING. If I was in NY, I would probably be posting away without caring because everyone’s doing it but I also wouldn’t have that one thing that’s making me apart.
Anyways, thankfully I feel better again.
7/10 - Low energy day but figured out a way to bounce back.
Intuiton - The answer honestly might be an evil eye amulut. I don’t just think it’s superstition because genuinely the white saje really does work and everytime I have something with god, that also does too.
