11/30 - Enjoy the process of becoming

Right before I was about to write, I saw a Tiktok that said enjoy being in the process of becoming. And this kind of sums what I needed to hear today because today just felt like a mega question on who even am I? I’ve been wondering that a lot lately, especially with all the recent encounters in my life. Sometimes I felt like I was responding as old me, sometimes I was responding as new me. It’s really not that straightforward as people make it seem. You don’t just wake up one day and decide to become someone else and then do it. I really feel like the natural way to embody your becoming is to really dive deep into figuring what parts of you that you truly make you special, the parts you want to keep, and the parts you want to change.

But that’s the hard part. Because when you’re in an environment that fostered the old you, you don’t know what needs to be changed. And it’s hard to show up as someone completely different with the people you’ve been with your whole life.

Today, I was feeling a bit impatient with it. Almost forgetting how far I’ve even come since Day 1.

On the other note, spent today getting my steps in while watching spellbound (such a cute movie), going grocery shopping for friendsgiving and arguing with mom lol.

She lost something when I told her it was lose but she didn’t not to listen to me. So her moral is to start listening to me.

8/10 - Gave good sunday vibes, even though it’s a saturday.

Intuition - Instead of searching for answers, I just need to be present. The answers will find me.