12/23 - Last working day

Technically my last working day of the year is tomorrow, but I’m going to Christkindle market, so I was on a mission to try to get everything done today.

Woke up and after dropping my mom off went straight to a coffee shop. Idk what’s in the air there, but I literally just work 10x faster and harder. I feel like I got more done there in 2 hours than I do at home, so cheers for productivity.

But it also was another busy day in between work, picking up mom, meetings, and then also had my laser appointment.

My laser place upgraded, so it looks super boujee now. My laser technician went to college with me, so her and I have a lot of things in common. We literally go through a whole agenda of topics from updates, her love life, my love life (non-existent), work, travel, even Luigi Mangioni, capitalism, governments, lolol it’s a whole catch-up.

Came home and just got back to working. Still have a couple of things left, so hoping to just wake up early again tomorrow and crank it out. My friends are also sleeping over tomorrow, so idk if I’m just going have another day of being sleep deprived.

I feel like December just flew by with all the hosting and traveling.

Besides that - today’s reflection:

In the morning, I was like maybe I’m trying to savor in Chicago and just don’t want to move because I actually love it so much. And then I’m like I love my mom too, how did I go through that time period?

My subconscious refuses to buy more things and hoard and is just really enjoying my safe that my house because idk if I’ll be here after March, so I’m trying to enjoy it as much as possible so I don’t miss it just in case anything happens.Even Chicago, I’m trying to do everything I like to do just so I don’t have any regrets but in doing so I feel like I’m moving like I am about to move.What did I do with mom?Sure, I savor every minute but also stayed positive that nothing was going to happen to her and envisioned her walking me down an asile.I prayed please don’t take mom away from me, I love her.But then is that creating an unhealthy attachment?What would I do for a guy I’m attached to but don’t know if he’s my person?Is loving something wrong?Or am I not buying things anymore to allow myself to complete detachAnd if it’s meant for me it will stay in my life and if it’s not than it won’t.