12/25 - Christmas & Vision Boards
Today, I woke up and just wanted to stay in bed be cozy. It’s Christmas but tbh like I said yesterday almost feels like I’ve been celebrating Christmas for a couple of days now. Got my rest in and enjoyed sleeping in. I got my mom shoes but she already knew that so I still made her open them. Lol she just gave me money, which honestly I don’t hate.
After getting ready, I went to go pick up my friend M to come make vision boards at my house. Lol I truly love how muslims don’t do anything for Christmas because my family never really went all out like that, so I was always like idk what to do on Christmas. When we were little we would even have sleepovers and realize everything was closed.
When we started making them, I realized I truly did achieve everything I put on my vision board this year that I felt aligned to. Given I only put like 5 pictures and 1 just for the hell of it picture. Like a picture of me winning the lottery without it feeling like it was mine lol.
So that’s when I realized you need to do the internal work for your vision board, so I made my friend go through the whole exercise for it. She came over not knowing what she was going to put and left feeling like the vision board for truly hers.
Earlier in the day, I also came across a Tiktok where the girl was like the way she won miss universe in a room full of pretty girls was believing she had already won and that’s how she started to move, and literally that is the biggest lesson I’ve learned this year. Move like it’s already yours.
After doing that exercise with her, whatever I wanted to put also got more clear and that’s when I was like f it. I love my apartment right now, so I’m literally going to put my apartment on my vision board.
I also realized that stuff I put on my vision board is also stuff I wanted since I was child and to some level I’ve already achieved. So these goals don’t feel new. They feel like they were always a part of me, they’re what I’m supposed to do, and I’m just realigning with them after being taken off my path for a while.
Just internalizing that these are mine and that they’ve already been a part of me brought a since of calmness in my heart, a sense of comfort, and courage that the visions I’m adding in at larger scale are more than doable. They don’t feel scary even one bit, despite them being huge.
I also want to add different versions of each vision. Like not just one photo that represents everything cause clearly lol that’s me being limited. For 2024 I just put a picture of me with a ring on my finger and no guy. And that’s exactly what happened. I have a ring on my finger with no guy. So note to self add the guy in the vision board too haha.
At one point, there was just so much I wanted to add that I also started getting a bit overwelhmed and decided to call it a day.
Before dropping my friend off, my mom wanted to go check out houses with Christmas lights, so us 3 went to go do that. We used to do that every year when I was a child. Back then I specifically remember this one house that had a part of their Christmas tree on the roof and I always thought they cut through their roof to do that. Now that I think of it, I still don’t know how they managed to do that but looking at the houses every year was my favorite part, so going this year also felt nostalgic and just a sense of comfort.
When we came home mom and I watched our fav Indian TV show to end the night.
9/10 - Felt like a comfy Christmas and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Intuition - You need to stray away from some things to come back stronger, almost like you’re returning home to the person you’re meant to be.
