12/26 - Feeling positive
After yesterday’s vision board session, I woke up feeling super excited and just positive. I also started feeling like the opportunities were endless and I could dream beyond just a restricted bubble of dreams. Like I didn’t have to be super realistic. Until yesterday, I was like “okay, what can I achieve this year” but today I was like “What do I want to have happen this year” almost like I was writing a mood board to a movie and that got me even more excited for the future.
The anxiety and worry I was feeling that past couple of days is also starting to shift where I no longer feel like I have to be realistic. My vision board is my place to be as crazy as I want AS LONG AS it truly feels like it’s mine. I feel like a lot of times people’s vision boards don’t come true because they just put a bunch of random things on it without doing the internal work for it. You have to really believe it’s meant for you when you put something on a vision board, so it feels like it’s aligned to you.
That being said, I still want to make whatever I wrote for 2024 come true, and I have less than a week to make it happen so I wrote done some deadlines for myself. I just need to hustle it out and make sure I stick to them now. I’m trying to keep myself accountable.
On the note of all the positivity, the weather was also warmer than usual, so finally went on my outside walk today after 2 weeks, and then came up with a schedule for all the things I need to do to make sure I hit all my daily goals and to get back on my routine.
10k steps
Eating clean + protein
Journaling
Workout
Gua sha/oiling
Brushing teeth
Drinking de-bloating tea
Side note - squarespace has so many fancy tools. I really need to take advantage of them.
Anyways, today was just filled with motivation. I also went to my dentist appointment this morning, and they did a filling on a tooth that looked a bit weird, so feel confident about that as well.
One of my goals before the year ends is to try to fix this blog and add my healing series. I think I’m finally ready to share it to the world. It just feels right, and I want to again hold myself accountable.
Dating wise - I’ve been going back and fourth between when I should start dating. I told myself I wouldn’t date until Jan and crazy to think that time is coming in literally a week. At first, I didn’t even think I could last until Jan. Especially after being on dating apps for 7 years straight and working for one. It was equivalent to dropping IG for me. And now that I’ve done it, and am just so excited about my 2025 goals part of me at one point was like lolol should I just not date and continue focusing on my goals? I like that version that I became when I stopped caring about guys.
After so many years, it finally felt like I was truly able to focus on myself. So why let that go now? But then I’m like being single is proabably intoxicating, and then I’m going to lose the intention of ever finding anyone because working on myself will always sound better. And maybe deep down this is just my way of hiding that I’m scared to get hurt again by saying maybe I’m not ready.
So after all this thinking, I decided I was going to start up my 2025 routine and get it to a point where I don’t let anything come in between it. Not even work or family. No excuses. If I can find time to get in a walk while my mom was at the hospital, I can find time to get in a walk any day any time. Me stopping for 2 weeks was simply because I was getting too comfortable after reaching my goal and I admit to that.
Every year, I’ve dreamed big but then some stupid boy comes and ruins my routine and then I drop my goals. Because spending time with the guy just sounds so much better than my routine. That will not happen this year. It’s about staying disciplined. Goals are only built from discipline and self-control.
Funny enough, literally while writing this my guy friend just texted me saying “are you busy?” to call and catch up. I haven’t talked to him for a bit, so part of me was like sure let me talk to him, but the other part of me was like no. You have 20 minutes to finish your journals. You don’t have time to talk and that’s exactly what I need.
So I might be living on schedules until the end of the year. Which as I should. Because this very schedule method is what brought me out of the sadness from a breakup this year. It eliminated the thinking, and brought routine and results, which I’m beyond proud of.
Ohh, and also went to a yoga class today, so feel at peace all around.
10/10 - Peace, positivity, and routine. Overall today’s energy was on another level.
Inuition - This positivity is what will allow me to make my wildest dreams come true, and I know I have it in me to make them all come true.
