12/31 - Universe is testing me to see if I’m really ready to level up
Honestly, yesterday felt like a better end to my year than today. Today was the plot twist I didn’t expect but it only made sense. Literally in the span of one day all my year’s worth of lessons felt like they were being test today.
In the morning, it was about my worth and trust for wealth and money. Then how much my mom means to me and if she’s a burden versus my family. Then the ups and downs from work.
We have people that we rent a room in our house out to and today she was getting too much, given my mom did say some stuff too. Overall though the conversation with my mom was leaning towards her feeling like she was a burden in my life. The whole me would have probably been like ugh why am I the one that has to deal with this. Like why did god put me in this situation. The new me is like no, my mom is my family. I’ll handle anything that comes my way as long as she’s with me.
With the roommates, I was like whatever I don’t see them. Peace is more important to me and as far as money, god will find a way for money to come to me.
At work, first of all we didn’t get our bonuses, and then my boss is like oh yeah they’re thinking about cutting a percentage of it off. Which lol is wrong on so many levels. First of all, I need to count the bonus as part of this year’s taxes. So that was screwed up by them, second of all you need to tell you employees before the quarter not after they work their butt off and then be like actually you’re not getting all of it. It’s bad karma on all levels, there are families waiting for that money. Old me would have just felt helpless and frustrated. New me is like the companies values don’t seem to align with mine anymore. I have faith that my income won’t go down, the universe is on my side, and as my frequency is increasing to the next level this job just doesn’t feel like it’s part of me anymore. It was a frequency match for the girl that didn’t know her self worth, not for the girl that does. Soooo i’m actually not putting my job on my vision board cause it’s time to let go, which I’ve been thinking about for a while but I think I’m officially detaching. Even the last time I was in SF, it felt like a goodbye to Dil Mil.
Overall, I don’t whats in store for me, but I put it out in the universe that I’m ready to let go and have the next chapter be welcomed in my life.
New me is in peace with all this uncertainty. And tbh I feel like I passed my tests to let the universe know I’m truly ready for the next level in my life.
Spending the new year’s at home with my mom, and it just feels right. That’s exactly what and who I want to spend my new year’s with. We spent the day cleaning and just cleansing the space. With the roommate drama, the house felt a bit of negative energy, so just focused on making sure none of that was there. I think it’s gotten better, and the house feels brighter.
We also ran errands and even went to go get flowers. I’m fasting today, so we didn’t really make anything fancy for dinner. Our main goal is making sure the house is ready for tomorrow and leaving the year with peace.
Mom and I also went to the mandir again and today I focused on simply gratitude for everything again. It’s been a crazy year but I’ve grown sooo much and god was with me the whole time.
I ALSO MADE MY FIRST YOUTUBE VIDEO TODAY! lol on frequency. It was super rushed but I had a mission to get it out, so I did.
I literally am so proud of myself for “dating myself” for 5 months too. The best relationship I’ve been in, and it was truly needed.
8/10 - Plot twist but still ended the year in peace and I’m so proud of sticking to all the commitments I made to become the best version of myself. Literally did almost everything on my 2024 list! 1 more hour to go!
Intuition - I’m ready for the next level of my life and it truly couldn’t have came at a better time.
