1/1 - Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! Mom and I stayed awake to say happy new years, it was a genuinely happy moment and just felt right. After that, I was on such a positivity high that I went in my room and recorded a video of me just knowing that all my wishes were going to come true this year. I was just super excited about it all and was just so happy. I just felt it and just know that all my dreams really are going to come true.

However, when I woke up the positivity started going away. I started to slightly doubt myself that what if I can’t make it happen, but that’s when I watched my positivity video and got the idea to actually post it too because I realized no one else gives you more motivation that a positive version of yourself.

Today didn’t really feel like I had to make it perfect, it more so felt like “okay, time to buckle up and make all these come true. Time to get to work, and hustle.”

God ready and went to the mandir with mom to seek blessings for the new year, and now that I’m embodying I’m a content creator, I got the idea to record myself praying and post it as my first tiktok for the year. It just felt right starting with god and his blessings.

After the mandir, mom and I went to go get dosa and samosa chaat as our first meal for the year, and it slapped.

After food, we just came home, chilled, and I edited/posted my tiktoks. After doing that for a bit, I chugged my coffee and did my hot girl 13k walk on my walking pad while listening to some hype bollywood songs.

Also had a little hype dance sesh. I almost forgot how much I loved dancing, and it also feels grounding.

Then I joined mom to spend time with her while we watched a indian show. Spending time with her is something I’m making a conscious effort to do this year. She’s my family. In fact, I really want to start cooking too to elevate my skills. I don’t ever want to end up with someone that doesn’t make an effort to spend family time or doesn’t prioritize chores, so I’m going to need to upgrade to that level too in order to attract who I want.

I also worked on my vision board for a bit. I love how Dostana is where some of my inspiration started from, and while doing my vision board, I tried to really drill in my head that this is what’s destined for me. It’s like knowing you should break up with someone but it’s hard. You’re not going to get peace until you do it. My vision board is also in my destiny. I’m not going to get peace until I made my dreams come true. The sooner I accept it the better.

But I can’t help but feel a little scared of all the changes that are going to come. I have a feeling I’m going to have to quit, and that just scares the living shit out of me. But at the same time, if I don’t quit, I won’t be chasing my dreams that I’m destined for and I’m just going to be more miserable.

I also randomly started seeing IG reels on everything I learned by myself. An initial reaction was that there’s already this knowledge out there… what about I going to do creating content on it. But then I had to remind myself that it’s on my FYP because of everything I’m thinking. It’s not on everyone’s FYP. It’s just niche to me.

And if i literally learned all this by myself, there must be a reason. No one is me. No one can explain like me. It’s possible for two people to share the same content and for people to like the second person simply because of their energy. If anything if this person is doing so well, it should be a sign for me that I can be successful. I don’t need to get too much into my head about it. This just proves that all my theories are correct too.

Lately, what’s meant for me will always be for me. No one can take that away. It literally could be possible that I achieve more success simply because I’m closer match to the frequency for it. I have a completely different story than her too.

I also saw a video of kriti salon saying she was so nervous but she kept putting herself in the same crazy situations until she embodying the label and that’s when she became confident. Which also proves that my starting point has nothing to do with anything.

8/10 - The day started off super positive but doubt slowly started creeping it but I know I’m not going anywhere. I believe in myself through and though.

Intuition - All my dreams ARE going to come true overnight because I am a frequency match. I feel it. The only thing that would stop me is if I let my fears win but I know myself and no matter how scared I might be, I’m not going to let that happen, I made a promise to myself to let my dreams happen. I will not let my fears control my actions. I am fearless.


Last year, in the beginning of the year, I promised myself I was going to choose my mom, which allowed me to move to Chicago. At the end of the year, I promised myself I was going to stay single until the end of the year. All my promises from last year brought me so many blessings and changed my life completely.

This year, I promise myself I will choose my dreams. Because at the end of the day, I literally can’t live with myself if I don’t pick my dreams. So my dreams is the answer.

I literally can’t mess anything up. What’s meant for me will never miss me; the universe has my back, even through the bad things.