1/2- Importance of positive energy

Last night I was just so excited to make all my dreams come true and show up as that version of myself that I went on a rabbit hole of doing things I needed to do to feel my best and glow up. Might be a little TMI but inserting it below. I need to feel and look my best to show up as my best.

And then woke up with a random epifeny on energy. Like truly the importance of making sure the energy around you is positive, so you can feed off of it and literally quantum leap to a higher version of yourself because at the end of the day you mindset is everything. What you feed it matters.

Only to get out of my room.. and have my mom piss me off lol. She’s been watching all these facebook videos and just coming up with random things to do, which is just instilling more suspicion in me. I want any ritual I decide to take on to me my own now distilled me from fear from my mom. Which last night, I literally told her no more, and she still started my day by telling me we need to have a pair of slippers (that we share) for the bathroom. Just me and her to not take the energy from the bathroom to the kitchen. First of all, us wearing the same slippers is transferring our energies which is worse. Second of all there are other people that will take their energy from the bathroom to the living since we have 2 bathrooms, so it’s not like the kitchen/living room will be a pure place. Lol we also have to walk through our lobby with outside shoes to get to the bath. So overall nothing about this made sense, and I just lost it. I explained it to her in a calm tone multiple times, but she continued to overstep on my boundaries.

For me yelling at her, okay? no. I need to work on that. But anger also comes from boundaries being stepped on repeatedly, so I’m not to invalidate my feelings either.

However, just this whole situation of setting the intention for positive energy and having it be brought down with our mother and daughter fight just set me back a bit.

My energy went from positive to just drained. Which again literally proves my point to why positive energy around you is beyond important to make your dreams come true. I also keep seeing the number 11:10 for literally the past 6 months. And this isn’t me being delusional. I literally look at the clock and see it all the time or anywhere. And that’s a sign to stay positive. So even my angel numbers make sense to me.

While I was rotting in bed, trying to charge my energy, I feel like I truly got the blessing I needed. SOMEONE RANDOM COMMENTED ON MY YOUTUBE VIDEO! Saying I inspired them and I have 6 subscibers. Literally I posted 2 days ago, and already have someone telling me that I inspired them. That itself just felt like such a blessing and even motivation to keep going. I thought no one was going to see the video. And 2 random genuine comments came in just from my first video. It truly was the positivity I needed.

Honestly, I’m beyond blessed that literally all my healings/teachings are coming to me. Which makes me feel even more inspired as my purpose to share them to the world. I’m really not learning it from other people. It’s based on my own experiences.

Currently, just got out of bed and am journaling. Still need to go through the rest of my routine and still feel slightly drained. But I know I got this. I’m going to give myself 30 minutes, get my steps in, shower, do my makeup, and record.

Since my first video was in PJs, lol I decided I’m going to keep that as my theme and make all my videos in my PJs. Feel like it gives a unique edge to it, since I haven’t really seen anyone do that, and less decision paralysis if I just switch between PJs. Also changed my name to “latenightswithShalini”. Feels fitting to the whole theme lol.

Wasn’t really feeling motivated to work, so got my steps in while listening to hype Bollywood songs again. That’s when I made another promise to myself that I was actually going to quit if I didn’t get the raise I wanted, because again the universe doesn’t reward those that aren’t a frequency match for the item. Making promises also just feels like less decision paralysis too. The decision is made. Not time to see what happens, either levels up with me or goes out. I do feel empowered by this promise and no longer feel scared because I’ve already done the detaching.

I was going to go to yoga after my walk but the class filled up, which I’m not mad about. It just feels like a resting day. So I’ll do some at home stretches in a bit, and then get ready to film my content.

While I was on my social media scrolling time, I noticed I’m more inclined to share about someone else starting their own thing. Example: my friend’s fiance quit to focus on his merch, and I immediately commented and shared. I almost felt like I was a part of the creator community, not like I’m just a third person seeing what he did. Especially since just today, I was like either my job levels up with me or I’m quitting too and focusing on my goals. This switch itself made me feel like I’ve officially been accepted into the creator community, and back to “you attract what you are” literally out of nowhere all I see is creators now and people that are taking a chance to pursue their dreams. People who are on the same boat as me.

I was doing my makeup and literally it felt like someone was holding my hand and pulling me. Everything in my body was giving up but I kept going. I almost felt like there was a gravitational pull trying to keep me in the same frequency literally as I feel myself truly entering my next level. Almost like I’m a video game and there are demons pulling me down to have me lose and not make it to the next level as I’m about to make it through. But this is how I know I have to buckle down and just keep going. I can’t stop no matter what.

I did it! I made the videos and then had a sync with mahera afterwards lol.

7/10 - Not going to lie.. today was super hard to show up for especially with the whole gravitational pull. But I’m still glad I made it through.

Intuition - I’m on the right path, and even though I’m making scary choices. I’m aligning with the frequency of my dreams.