1/10 - ups and downs
After the past 2 days of reflection, and just seeing how far I’ve come in my healing, today went like a peaceful day. More than anything I was more proud of myself and truly felt like all my work from the past couple of months didn’t go to waste and that itself just felt like a reason for happiness.
I woke up, and went to a coffee shop after dropping mom off. Tried a pistachio crossiant for the first time and tbh wasn’t a big fan of it. Got some work done, and then went to my wisdom teeth consultation. Basically, I’m getting 3 of them removed. This is my first time going under anesthesia, so I don’t know how I feel about it.
Even though my consult was expensive, I’m starting to not stress about money, which is again changing my relationship with money. I still think about where it’s going to come from, so idk if that’s healthy or not. Like would I pay $700 for a flight if I was rich. And probably not because I just feel like it’s a lot. But I would happily pay for anything that improves my life, physically or medically. So why not mentally? While I’m trying to show up as a rich version of myself, need to figure out the answer to that. However, I do feel like I’m moving closer to that version.
After that, got my eyebrows done. Been meaning to get them done for a bit now, especially because I want to record tomorrow.
Later in the day, just ended up having a chill evening. Watched one of my fav Bollywood movies Dostana and got my 17k steps in. Dostana was the movie that inspired my marketing career, and what I get my pictures for my vision board, so it felt right watching it, Watching a movie and getting steps in always goes by so fast.
Also took an edible because I wanted to test out if I would still get anxiety, especially since I’m pretty calm today. Or whatever triggers that are deep in my subcousius. Also music just hits different, so kind of feels like a fun end to the weekend.
8/10 - There are highs one day, and lows another day. Still ignoring but just want to be present.
Intuition - My ups and downs are part of life. Everything will be okay.
