1/20 - Inauguration day
Trump got inaugurated today. The energy just kind of feels weird, almost like uhh what’s going to happen. But also you face the reality of how life truly isn’t real and you would think history doesn’t repeat itself but it does. It almost feels daunting to know we have to go through this for another 4 years.
To fix the energy, I woke up with an urgent need to just clean, especially since my room was super messy. The goal today was to be super productive and stay busy especially since it was a day off. Did some cleaning and then ate breakfast and got really exhausted. Took a nap, but literally didn’t have energy to get out of bed. It just all felt so daunting.
Called my best friend and somehow found the energy to clean my entire room and reorganize a couple of things in the bathroom.
Then did a whole energy cleanse with this saje I got from amazon. Lately especially after everyone that comes to my house tells me they feel positive energy in my house, I’ve been super protective of it. Because literally I feel the positive energy too and it’s my safe space to even dream. It feels good.
Tiktok is already sensored… and it just doesn’t feel good anymore knowing that whatever is fed to you digitally is all controlled.
Part of me honestly just feels like I need a whole social media break. Because just consuming all this content is going to drive me crazy. I think it’s diverting my ability to manifest my dreams because it kind of brings fear in and just makes me feel like “no way my dreams are going to happen” especially when stuff like reproductive rights and immigration rights are at stake. Like it almost feels like “it’s against me”. That’s why I’m like if I stay ignorant many that’s the best. Nothing is clouding my dreams, and I’m just trusting the universe. Creating content instead of consuming content.
Anyways, I didn’t get much done from my routine today but I’m letting that not bring me down. I needed a day to mourn.
Tomorrow is a scary day in Chicago too so I just need to stay busy and hopefully the positive energy will help.
4/10 - Ugh the energy in the US is just really off. Like it’s about to be a long 4 years. So trying anything possible to feel a safe space with energy.
Intuition - I need to just ignore everything happening in the world and just stay true to my manifestations.
