1/18 - Manifesting + energy
Today started off as another day of running errands. Got ready and went to the mandir with mom. I wasn’t scared. For some reason, I felt a lot of positivity and just knew that no matter what was happening in the world, the universe was working in my favor. There was good vibes and positivity everywhere and that itself brought a lot of peace, especially since just the day before I was praying to god for some peace. And then we went grocery shopping.
Some of my friends know I haven’t been doing that well, so they were checking up on me and I just felt all the love.
While I was grocery shopping lolol the Tiktok ban also lifted. Literally, in less 12 hours, so that was short lived.
Basically a sign to get back into making content. After coming home, I went to go pick up my friend from work to just debrief about everything happening. We also made a Tiktok while debriefing because why not. I was kind of scared to drink coffee just because I haven’t had it in a while and lately its been giving me anxiety.
I still needed to go back to her house but had a yoga class I was running late to, so told I would just come back. The yoga class felt very rejuvenating. I used it to just do a bunch of visualizing by grounding myself. It helps. I imagine the whole earth under my finger tips and it makes the energy felt more than myself, like I have the whole world’s energy within me and by grounding, I feel like I have a stable ground. And then I visualize having everything I need within me and a huge aura of magic. Like yellow protective light around me. I did that at the mandir too and visualized the light almost like sun rays around me, my mom, and Siyara. It helps feel like I’m protected and that anything that comes my way to break my energy breaks. Just like the sun. And then I connect with my breathing and heart and stomach. Most of yoga is just visualizing but taking it slow helps you stay regulated. That’s why I love yin so much. I used to cry every time I did hip opening exercises but now I use it to just slow down and breathe.
Leaving yoga just felt like it was exactly what I needed. It felt like I had myself. And that’s the energy I went with to my friend’s house. There, she had something that I’ve been wanting for a while, and after putting the engagement ring on I learned it almost helps you quantum leap. It tells you exactly what you’ll have at what time. Like when I put the ring on, I knew it wasn’t my time right now, but it gave me insights to at what time I would have a ring and that was when I would be chasing my dreams.
So I touched whatever I wanted. The shocking part was that the version of me right now had it. No changes. A version of me literally in the next day or two. or even a month away. But it felt closer than ever, and everything has been aligning with that. Out of nowhere this is what I want the most, and it hasn’t been like that in years. And out of nowhere, all my other wants are aligning with it too. ALSO! It was almost like this thing was already mine. Like it wanted me just as much as I wanted it. It was meant for me.
The ring again felt off, like it wasn’t mine just yet. This was. I didn’t even cry because it almost felt like duh. “This was always yours to begin with.”
That itself excited me. I’m getting it soon. I just know it.
9/10 - Kind of a wild day but I felt love, I felt the positivity, and I felt hope. I’m going to stay strong on my manifestation.
Intuition - I know that whatever is happening in the world, I’m closer than ever to thing I’ve been praying for years. It’s mine. And the universe will make it happen. Because THIS version of me has it.
