4/12 - I need more of me, not my job.
Lots to talk about! Last night, I kind of went on a chat gpt spiral again by plugging in my birth chart and I feel like it gave me everything I needed to hear. Literally shout out to chat gpt. I wish I could just save an insert the message here, but I literally told it how I was feeling really impulsive with quitting and it just affirmed that no, I’m done with this chapter in my life.
https://chatgpt.com/share/67fb3c88-10e0-8012-867e-d7e61f7612f3
Things that stay with me:
Work doesn’t need more of you, you need more of you.
Treat your paycheck like an angel investor in your dreams.
I need to stop finding purpose at work now, and stop trying to fix broken systems.
Basically, that I need to lock in the next 3 months and treat it like the ground work to build, so I can quit in July.
I kept wondering why this whole time literally while being such a great marketer, why don’t opportunities come to me? But it’s because I’m not supposed to have my identity tied to my marketing career. It felt like I was just chasing for recognition. If i did get all the work, I would never be vulnerable online because then I would have a bunch of clients.
Right when I was trying to be strategic with having the ads around my face go around, me and my other friend stopped talking. It’s like the universe don’t want me to be known for my marketing.
And that’s what my birth chart says too. Marketing was just a stepping stone for me. It gave me everything I needed and now that part of my identity is a skill not my identity.
So I took out “I build viral marketing campaigns out of my bio”.
I also just prayed to get a good routine in place because again makes sense, If I post a video and it goes viral nothing is going to happen from it. I’m supposed to build a whole brand on my life lessons. I need to keep posting everyday, so when that video does go viral people will follow me for me and my whole brand. It’s more sustainable.
I just need to really lock in on this routine. Also, need to prepare my finances so did a quick audit on that and the things I need to pay off. Stuck between if I should save or if I should just live how I’m living and not give money energy.
I think it needs to be a bit of both. But also need to remember no scarcity mindset. Money is abundant. Money is attracted to me. Money will flow to me.
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^ All that happened at like 2am. Woke up really tired for the lack of sleep so went back to sleep. Today is Hanuman Jayanti. After waking up, I read my “let them” book for a bit and then showered and ate (I was fasting today), and then got ready. Decided I was going to film my walk, so dressed up for that and decided that I was just going to film me doing 1 thing a day, and do voice overs based on my substack journals. Trying to create a flow for it all.
During my walk, I just walked around with the tripod, and honestly no shame. Really owning the content creator label. I decided I was just going to be obsessed with creating.
After my walk, we went to the mandir. There were sooo many people there today. Cute guys too lolol. But overall I just felt so overstimulated, hot, and dehydrated. It was a lot.
Inutiton - I’ll figure it out. I feel all the energy so strong right now. I know I need to channel all my creative energy for myself now. I have it in me.
8/10 - Wholesome and just trying to keep a routine for content.
Energy:
30% - Thinking about my next moves
40% - Creating content for myself
30% - Praying
