4/15 - Discipline eliminates overthinking

I woke up early and got ready to maybe work out of a coffee shop but was super sleep depreived, so after dropping mom off, lol I came back home and just slept.

Still wanted to get ready because I needed to film some things, so did my makeup and went to go pick mom up.

I was fasting today, so we had our one meal of the day, and then I had to hop on meetings. The call I hopped on was with an events team, and we might be doing an experience in chicago.

Tbh I’m in a phase where I’m constantly juggling doing new things for work and putting more focus on myself. I get excited for work things too, so I”m still not over it. But maybe like yesterday, I’m still supposed to be working and this confusion is just preparation for full detachment.

When it’s time to quit, I’ll just know. And maybe right now just isn’t the time to quit, which is why I’m still excited. God already know that if I’m misserable or if something pisses me off, I definitely won’t think twice before quitting. And I’m still supposed to be there for 3 more months, so it’s good that I’m still excited. lol I still have 3 months to go, and def wouldn’t be miserable for that long.

I also filmed again. I filmed my tedx auditon clip! And re-did my intro clips. This time the energy in my videos were very different! Yesterday capcut just wasn’t working for me. Maybe I was meant to refilm today to get better quality content to edit.

Had another meeting afterwards, and honestly my confidence was great.

We then went to my old neighbor’s house cause her grandpa passed away. By the time we came home it was already 9pm and I was still only at 3k steps.

But the discipline was real. I literally dragged myself to the gym at 9:30 (which I never do) and got all my steps in. Honestly this moment was big for me because the discipline was so much greater that I didn’t even think twice. I was just like well we gotta get the steps in so need to go to the gym.

Came home and chilled with mom.

On the other note, lmaooo the girl whose dinner I didn’t go to kicked me out of the bridesmaid list. So beef there. I also ended up texting my best friend back.

9/10 - Very confident day except the piece of drama

Intuition - everything happens for a reason.

Energy:
30% - filming
40% - confidence!
20% - Discipline
10% - Drama