10/28 - glued to my phone

Lately, I’m been just glued to my phone, and I need to figure out how to stop that. The slightest downtime and I go on my phone. I think it also got worse after posting on Tiktok cause now I go on Tiktok to see how it’s doing.

I’m also starting to be stuck to my phone while I go on walks when before I would just listen to podcasts.

I don’t want to deactivate my IG every time I’m stuck to my phone. I feel like I need to learn this self-control. There’s no reason I should be needing it. The only emergency I would have is my mom, and she’s next to me in the living room.

Idk how I’m going to help this but maybe to do a phone free day or something next week? Or no phone after 9pm? not sure exactly.

But I do have some what of an answer to yesterday. I’m going to stay strong till the end of this year with the no partying and drinking, and then take next year day by day.

No drinking wasn’t actually ever like a hard goal. I was okay with casual drinking or drinking when I really wanted to but there just wasn’t an occasion where I really wanted to, and now I’m too deep in the months that I want it as an accomplishment. 6 months of no alcohol. I also want to see what this does to my body. But this seems to be a good compromise for next steps.

8/10 - Did 18k steps today, so tried being busy but need to get rid of phone phobia. maybe I need a good book.