10/31 - Free from judgement

Happy Diloween! I was thinking about this yesterday too but I can’t believe I’ve been super consistent with journaling. It’s been 2.5 months. And it honestly feels nice to have a place to see the things I realize every day and just seeing how I’m growing.

Today was Diwali! So we had a family lunch with Pao Bhaji and honestly it was just super wholesome. I loveee Diwali week and growing up on Devon was just so fun. You can feel the change in energy in the air. Everyone is greeting each other, it’s good busy, everyone is praying, the lights everywhere. It just feels magical. I genuinely look forward to this time of the year and this year was super hard on my mom and I but just thankful that we can celebrate the holidays together. Not taking a single minute with her for granted. This year has really taught me to value her and just come out of the teenage enery of being super annoyed with your parents. Don’t get me wrong, I still get annoyed, but remember that there’s no one else in the world that means as much as she means to me.

I’ve been lighting up Diyas and getting dressed up for the past two days to post my Tiktok early, so today almost felt like I extension where I was able to just be present.

After the heavy meal, I just spent the rest of the day trying to get my steps in while working.

Yesterday -
There was a couple of things I said where everyone was like ugh no. She’s so extra or that’s so weird, and they all came on board with it. Before I would actually let their initial judgement stop me, and I would conform. Like maybe that is weird, but yesterday I stood on ground and they followed. Which goes to show that i’ve been scared of the judgement of those that are people pleasers themselves. And I can’t be more proud of myself for literally having the courage to be different even while being judged.

So overall, now that I’m reflecting. I’m honestly truly thankful for the life god has given me and just so proud of myself for growing so much this year.

10/10 - proud of myself for the person i’m becoming and thankful