11/7 - Just keep swimming.

The morning was just spent going on a walk and working tbh, so nothing special there. I’m really glad that I did take those days off. Definitely didn’t realize how burnt out I actually was. I think a sign is just when you start to hate everything.

But later in the day when to Qawah House with M and literally we were having the time of our lives. She was helping me finalize the exact details for our Dil Mil merch box and while doing so we were just having so much fun. Brought be back to the days where we would do group projects together. We were also just truly enjoying being single. No pressure, nothing. We were joking about how a single person’s main agenda is to look hot. And lolol we were just dying. No part of us was jealous of people being in relationships. No part of us felt like we were “behind”. We were genuinely happy where we were in life and just making the most of it. And the car ride home was even funnier. Lmfao we even thought of a couple of other merch ideas.

Mom has a colonoscopy tomorrow, so just praying everything goes well there.

And on the other note, earlier today on my walk, I kept thinking about all the things I was telling the college kids yesterday. How right now your dream life of graduating and getting a job feels so far, but I promise when you get it, you’ll be like “that’s it? I really did it. Like it was always yours” and that just felt like a refresher for me and my dreams of starting my own business. Right now because I’ve never seen it happen in my family, it almost feels so far away. But like I told them yesterday and I’m telling myself today, just keep swimming. just keep going. Keeping pushing. It is yours. You can do it. You will do it.

10/10 - Feeling like I’m right where I’m supposed to be even in the midst of a bunch of ambiguity