2/24 - The little things & being an opportunist
I’ve been feeling super bloated for the past couple of days, so today I woke up being thankful that I was feeling a little less bloated. And then after dropping mom off, I felt like going to a new coffee shops but instead was craving a bagel, so tried this new bagel spot. Thats when I was just sitting there and was like wow this bagel is super good. The vibes of it also kind of reminded of this coffee shop I used to go to in SF, so felt a bit nostalgic. Just seeing people enjoying their bagel and coffee was so cute. Sometimes, all it takes is a bagel and coffee. And that gratitude feeling carried through the rest of my day in a special light. After my bagel, I did also end up going to another coffee shop across the street just cause they make their syrups in house.
Instead of staying at coffee shops until I had to pick up my mom, I decided to come home and just enjoy my apartment. It felt nice. I don’t really spend alone time in my apartment, I’m usually just sleeping or in my room if I am alone.
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The weather was in the 50s, so before going on my walk, I noticed a package under my name and I immediately knew it was a gift because I didn’t order anything. I opened the top layer and it showed that it was a galentine’s day gift from my SF friend. The one that’s coming to stay at my house for a week in 2 weeks. It was the cutest thing ever, and just a surprise I didn’t expect. Just felt so thankful to have such friendships in my life, and just felt like idk what I did to deserve them but I’m so thankful. Also I was confident in my energy as a friend because I’m like I attract what I am, so I am a good friend too. And just a wholesome moment overall. I felt like I hadn’t gotten a surprise in a while, so it felt special.
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On my walk today, number 1 thing was I was sooo grateful to be able to walk outside. Literally missed it so much. And number 2 - I randomly got this boost of confidence where I was like one thing about me is that I’m an opportunist. Literally the thing that most people are scared of ends up being my opportunity. In school, people were scared about marketing being a “dumb” career, I still went after it and now it’s the top career. When I graduated, people were scared about not getting a job, and I got my dream job with my dream salary. When people were getting laid off, I found a way to get promoted. When my work was enforcing coming to work, I moved without telling them and then everyone followed. And now when work isn’t giving out promotions that’s my next target. That’s exactly when I’m going to get my promotion. I find a way to get what I want when people are the most scared of it. And that’s what gave me a boost of confidence to not worry about the thing I’m running out for because now I see an opportunity there which can even lead to my promotion in the best way. So now I’m hoping that’s exactly what happens but in a protected way. I’m back to trusting what god has in store for me, and releasing the anxiety from it because things have always worked out for me.
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While working, I had a sync with one of my coworkers and I just felt sooo blessed to have the ability to think of insane solutions on the spot. Like that to me even shocks me. The way I problem solve is truly a blessing, and I’m so thankful.
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So the dude’s mom came back saying the birth chart’s match, which I actually think is a lie because I know for sure they don’t. I also did some Chat GPTing after getting his birth chart, and they still don’t match so like why his mom saying they’re matching. Idk how I feel about it now.. like I was so sure that they were also going to say no that I’m like thank god this chapter is over before it even started. According to this birth chart, he’s definitely not the type of person I’m looking for, he’s the opposite. And that’s what my gut says too, all without meeting him or talking to him. I just feel like as a gemini he always wants to do “cool” things, have plans, and be out and about, and I’m just not in that phase of my life right. I’m in my chill routine phase cause I have dreams that are more important to me. And I just feel like he’s going to disrupt the flow to that, neither do I want to doubt myself or do things to see cooler. That’s literally what I did with J and that’s where the anxiety started to come from, where I felt like I just wasn’t cool enough to keep up his lifestyle and that’s when I also realized that I didn’t want that kind of person in my life.
So literally what’s the point of adding him, being friends with him, etc. I just feel like it’s a waste of time eventually. So idk if I should just tell my mom to say no and that the birth charts don’t match or if I should try being friends with him/go out with him and then say no. Tbh my gut is saying to just say no now.
10/10 - Today was just filled with so much gratitude. It truly is the little things in life.
Intuition - The universe is working in my favor and I know good things are always happening for me. I truly am blessed and lucky.
