3/18 - Taking space & inspiring people
Today felt so warm to my heart and just honestly the motivation I needed to keep going. I’ve been having insane insomnia lately, so couldn’t sleep until 4am as much as I tried, and then my stomach was hurting in the morning, so woke up at 9am too.
I’m someone that just feels super cranky when I don’t get enough sleep, so I kind of woke up beyond excited to go back to sleep. But had to go to my laser appointment.
Like I mentioned in my earlier journals, the girl I get my laser done by is actually someone I went to college with, and her and just have a lot to talk about, so the 2.5 hour laser session never feels awkward. It honestly just feels like catching up.
While we were talking, she randomly asked me if I was going on dates, and I said no. I want to focus on my dreams, and that’s when we got talking about literally everything I’ve been talking about in my journals regarding my dreams, my limiting beliefs, the whole thought process behind going public on IG and how it was actually really hard, how I feel like it’s my purpose because I already do it naturally, being more drawn to people that are following their dreams and literally she was on the same boat.
Where she’s scared to go public because of everything I was talking about to and then I told her how “I’m ready to take space” and stop being small and invisible. I can’t be small in my own life anymore. And just the whole conversation, she was like this was the sign I needed and you’re so right.
And honestly, I feel like that brought us even closer AND I did what I do. My purpose again. Where I take everything I’m learning and going through to inspire others and help them achieve their dreams or even just get started and push beyond their limiting beliefs because they see how I’m working through them and that inspires them.
Not only did I naturally draw someone that’s in the same boat, I literally did want I’m best at doing, and just got inspired myself.
The rest of the day I tried working and honestly trying to sleep but it wasn’t working out. Also took mom to urgent care and to get her proper medication.
After coming back, tried sneaking in a walk to get my steps in. Couldn’t get all 10k and ended the day with 6k but it’s okay. Getting back in the routine slowly and a bad day never ruins the habit as long as you get back up.
Something else was that I was on IG and I saw a video on how the universe gives you signs on your future when you don’t even know it. That’s what got me thinking that tbh yeah. One of my goals is to be a tedx speaker, and having organizing a whole event in college, I actually know that it’s super approachable. And you just need to apply to be a speaker by simply googling. You don’t need to wait to have someone reach out to you. It’s not serious as any other speaking event. In fact, tedx events also have a speaking coach.
So I googled some and saw that the TedX Chicago is happening in September and the deadline for applications is March 30.
SOOOOOO I’M APPLYING TO BE A TEDX SPEAKER! 🎉
On top of that, I came home and saw one of other friends start a Youtube channel after I gave her a pep talk and inspired her and told her I’ll be supporting her. Just so cute 🥺
10/10 - Today felt so inspiring, the fact that I’m already inspiring a couple of people to get back into their dreams. I can only imagine the difference I’ll make for thousands of people one day if I keep focusing on that dream.
Intuition - I have such strong faith on my dreams right now that I just know I’m getting closer and closer
