9/26 - peace and growth

In love with peace.

After not having peace for so long and just even a year ago where I didn’t care about coming home on time. I loved clubbing and going to bars or going out to eat.

And now, I love being home in peace. I always wondered if I would ever get to this level where I genuinely just want to be home before 9pm, finish my bedtime routine and just be in bed chilling with some me time until 11-12.

I quit drinking in July as well. There wasn’t a hard reason. Just felt like I didn’t need to. But I’m not completely opposed to it yet. Like if I’m at a speakeasy and if I want a drink, I don’t mind getting one. I also just haven’t found a compelling enough situation for me to be like let me break my streak to drink.

I did have the urge to take a gummie, but that gives munchies and I’m way too strict on my diet goals for that.

It does feel nice to see the growth though, and just valuing my space at home. I don’t feel the need to force myself to social situations if I don’t want to go. Which is also new for me because I was such a yolo person.

And more so, I’m a little in between with wanting to travel right now. I don’t have the urge to go to Portland anymore, but I still feel like I should take a solo trip, but at the same time, I actually don’t feel like traveling. I just want to be in my bed and have a routine.

It’s also crazy how a year ago I was living out of a suitcase and a stable home, peace, and routine is exactly what I prayed for.

8/10 - reflecting on growth