10/6 - I did it!
Reflection on yesterday: I DID IT! And I’m honestly so proud of myself. It truly did go better than anything I could have imagined. Yesterday, I feel like I just grew on so many levels. The energy I showed was me. Very calm, but not anxious. Friendly but also important. I made so many friends, literally just did what I want to do. Had fun and most importantly I had a whole conversation with Arjun’s team. It literally felt like I having a conversation with anyone and I could sense he trusted me. I didn’t even have pick me girl energy, he just started asking me questions about KJ and Dil Mil and we started talking. His manager Sameer was also super friendly with me. No sense of annoyed energy at all. And while I was doing it, it all felt really natural but now that I’m reflecting on it, literally this was my childhood dream. I would have literally been like noooo fucking way if told me Arjun knows you. It’s genuinely crazy how life works out and just inspires me to dream bigger. I knew I was ready and I’m soooo thankful to god for giving me strength. Just thinking about it is bringing me tears in my eyes. And then it all continued. I literally ubered to Carnegie and just stood their eating my pizza and it literally smacked. So good! Came back to the hotel, had a little photoshoot and then sat on the bed watching Hulu and eating the rest of the pizza. No better way I could have wanted to eat the night.
Yesterday was a 1000/10. Definitely a core memory and something I’ve accomplished.
Today:
I’m having my solo trip adventure. I’ve roamed around New York on my own better so it’s nothing new. But it feels so different. It actually feels like my solo trip. I’m just doing whatever I want on my terms. Places I want to check out.
So I’m writing this journal entry from literally the prettiest flower and coffee shop called Artisan and it’s so calming. The vibes, the flowers, the piano music. Earlier today I was just walking around Central Park. It also feels like I know New York. Like I’ve lived here. So honestly i just changed the narrative to I’ve subleased in New York before and lived a whole month here, that’s how I know it so well. I’ve also been to New York way too many times where it feels like I’ve actually lived here. Chicago, San Francisco, and New York. It’s crazy how I’ve lived in 3 major cities.
Life truly does just have a way of working out and I’m so proud of myself today too for embracing the solo adventures.
12/10 - I literally feel like I’m right where I’m supposed to be and I’m soooo sooo proud of all my growth.
