10/10 - I know I can accomplish anything.

Today is a bit weird - I felt super drained, overwhelmed, demotivated, and confident simultaneously. Hormones and emotions just feel like at an all-time high.

I feel drained because at work I just feel like anyone I hire just doesn’t do work up to my standards. I hire people that are impressive and have experience to only do a better job than them. All my life I felt like no there are people that are so much more skilled than me, so I literally hire people I can probably learn from. BUT it always ends up being that I can do a better job. And maybe this is the confidence I’ve been asking god for. I’ve been asking God to give me that willpower to start my own thing but deep down I’m scared of failing. But honestly, the way work is going lately and the way I’ve been having to learn things on the go just reminds me that I genuinely can do anything.

This almost reminds me of my ex-coworker N. She used to be terrible at making Tiktoks and now literally her IG page has one of the best brand Reels I’ve seen. Goes to show when there is a will there is a way and you can learn on the way.

I feel overwhelmed because I just feel like there’s sooo much more of a difference I can be making to people’s dating lives and here I am just selling things to them. I think I need to take a step back from all the selling content and delegate that to someone else to reinspire myself.

I feel demotivated because I’m so tired. I don’t feel like being active or going to the gym. I’ve been waking up late too. But I’m trying. I did end up going to the gym and I did end up eating healthy. So I’m trying to fight the will to just give up and stay strong.

I feel confident because while running somehow I just kept remembering what my friend M and my ex R said. They KNOW i’m going to make it. I get whatever I go after. I’m THAT girl, and that just motivated me because honestly even I know I’m THAT girl. I know I get everything I want.

I feel like I need to take a break from work. Get my routine back to together. Get extra-motivated again. And start working on my dreams. I have 2.5 months, and I know I can do this. I AM GOING TO DO IT THIS YEAR. I just know.

There’s also a couple of healing exercises that I need to take the time to do. Just need a bit of a mental and physical reset day.

I need to stop wasting time just sleeping.

7/10 - Very wide range of emotions