10/11 - staying consistent

So I found out I was on my period yesterday which explains the wide range of emotions.

Today, I had fitness goals in mind and refused to stray away from them. Even though I slept at 4am, I chugged coffee and still went to the gym before I had to start work.

Came home, took some meetings and then had to take my mom to get a blood test. After the blood test, mom and I went to go get burritos. It was wholesome. I feel like we haven’t had a lunch date in a while.

And then went to the Apple Store to get new AirPods and potentially new work laptop since mine has been acting up. I got to say though. All the new laptops look so ugly that I don’t even want a new one. I hate the new designs. Anyways, we got stuck in rush hour and then an accident happened, so it took forever to come home.

Even though I was exhausted from the day, still went on my hour walk. Came home and ate a healthy dinner.

It was a long day but I’m happy I stayed consistent and true to my goals and now I can’t wait to go to bed.

However, something I do need to address is my irrational fear of something happening to my mom is getting worse and worse. I’m too tired to look into it today but I really feel like I need to find the root and heal from this because it’s getting pretty bad and it’s keeping me in this anxious and scared aura which I don’t like.

On the other note, I’m pretty sure J is trying to communicate with me. I can just feel it. And usually I’m right. It’s almost telepathy, where sometimes I feel like I can pick up on people’s energy’s even when I don’t talk to them but lolol nothing comes out of it. Anyways, I unlocked J yesterday. I’m going to keep him unlocked until tonight. If I don’t get any communication tonight, I need to block the energy again.

7/10 - proud of consistency but need to address fear issues