10/15 - Slowing down

I’ve been drinking coffee a lot lately. I’m not addicted (well maybe now) to it or anything but it just makes me get things done at work faster, helps me not overthink, but I think it’s also starting to bring the anxiety.

I am feel like the words come out of my mouth faster than I can process them and although that might be good on some days, I think I just need days or even weeks where I move through life a bit slowly.

All the stressful stuff at work is done for now, so I decided to maybe cut out coffee for a bit. Alcohol, I really never liked honestly. And every time I would drink alcohol, I would instantly consider it such a waste. But coffee I feel use in, so as long as I wean off it slowly and give myself like maybe 2/7 of coffee instead of cutting cold, I should be good.

Overall, today was day 1, and even though I was moving a bit slowly. I feel like I could genuinely process things, bare the awkward pauses, let people take charge in meetings. The day did feel super long because of the sloth speed but also just peaceful, in a very long time, I felt like I wasn’t jittery or just anxious.

But - I wonder if people notice me moving slower? Do they think I’m dumb if I’m taking my time to answer? Just curious on how my coffee days versus non coffee days looks from someone else’s perspective. I feel like it’d be super cool if everyone just got their own camera man for the day to see how they move through life. Almost like a reality show for the day. Haha I feel like this needs to be a business idea.

9/10 - slow and peaceful