11/26 - Stepping into my don’t fuck with me era

For a while, I was in my being calm trying to problem solve era, where I would almost ignore everyone being rude as something like whatever.

But today something at work happened, and I honestly feel great about it.

One of my coworkers, is literally always coming to me with issues. Normally, I’m like “yeah, I hear you…”. Today I was done being disrespected and gaslight. Straight up just told her “you’re being disrespectful and I know what I say”. And that almost just felt like I said what I wanted to say.

Literally for a couple of years now, I eternally know exactly how I feel about the situation. ALWAYS. But I let their gaslighting go on to stay calm in the situation and almost ignore it. And it’s been feeling like I’m not speaking my mind and I’m almost swallowing what I need to say.

Today I felt like I was like “STFU. don’t tell me what you think. I’ll tell you what the reality is. and do not fuck with me.” and followed it with actions.

And that felt so freeing. Almost like I got my confidence back. Because until now by letting them gaslight me I was slightly almost doubting myself because I didn’t feel confident to say it how it was even though I internally always knew. Today it came out externally.

And I have no shame for it.

I used to be like this as a kid. Literally didn’t give a shit and just said what I needed to say. As a Taurus, every harsh reality that comes out of my mouth is the truth.

9/10 - Finally stepping into how I am, again. And will truly be embodying this “bitch, did I stutter?” attitude.

Intution - this is how i’m going to gain ultimate confidence.