12/2 - Self worth

I’ve been seeing tiktoks on this trend where lol people put their birth charts and ask chat gpt to read it. The main thing that came out of it is that I need to increase my self worth. And that’s where it hit me that chat gpt is actually right and I’ve been having it wrong this whole time.

This time I’ve been trying to work on confidence where honestly it kind of just didn’t make sense. I am super confident on my opinions. But it’s self worth where I’m lacking. In my love life to some degree I accepted the shitty behavior because deep down I didn’t know what was so special about me. Like why would they like me? which is why un intentionally always spent time trying to convience them of my worth, why I’m so great. It’s because somewhere I didn’t think I was worthy. Which is kind of sad tbh… because I didn’t really strike myself as that when I was going through it.

For work - I am super confident in my abilities but again always feel like I need to prove myself to show that I’m worthy. It’s not like the influencers I work with where they know they’re worthy and are more like take it or leave it.

I always feel the need to prove myself…. which basically means I don’t believe it deep down.

On the other note, I woke up early and go sooo much done. Literally all my errands before 11am. Since I’m on my sober life right now, also got zero proof gin. Excited to make some mocktails with it.

8/10 - Feeling hopeful but also sad that the fact that I didn’t have the self worth that I thought I did.

Intuition - It is an area I need to work on and need to figure out how to reframe myself.