12/3 - Trying to make peace with losing control

Now that I know that time and time again, I feel like I need to remind myself that my self-worth is my number one priority and everything else will follow. It’s crazy because this is actually things I have been noticing for the past few months, whenever someone was able to literally turn down a deal without having other deals lined up because they valued their self-worth. Internally, i’d be like wow. This is also where control comes in. Letting the universe do it’s thing while I prioritize my self-worth makes me panic because it feels like I don’t have a grasp on anything. As a Taurus, I love stability and the fact that having no control jeopardizes that does make me feel uneasy, but at the same time all this is just brining me closer to detachment, which is the north star.

So.. is this period hard right now? yes very. I’ve always been type A, so having no control on my life is almost driving me a bit crazy but again that’s where I have to find the peace and just trust that everything is going to work out.

Anways today was spent just trying to cross off things on my to do. I’ve been super organized lately, lol maybe this is my way of trying to feel like I have control again by at least mapping my day. It’s helping I guess.

I do feel very exhausted, and honestly don’t even know where the days are flying by at this point.

7/10 - Trying to make peace with no control

Intuition - I need this.