12/6 - Healing my inner child

My childhood friend group came over for Friendsgiving today! Being able to host after so long honestly healed a part of my inner child. The part that always wanted to host pretty parties, have aesthetic decor, and just enough safe without feeling ashamed.

I couldn’t do that at my old house. I always just felt too ashamed to have people over as I grew older. It was too small, cramped, and just wasn’t aesthetic. And some part of me just longed for the day where I would have a pretty house, and good budget to make my dinner table look pretty like the ones I would see in other people’s pictures. With just growing up with mom honestly I didn’t think that day would ever come where we would be able to afford fancy things. It almost felt like a distant rich life.

But today that happened. A rich life dream actually became reality, and now even though it feels like something basic, this did heal the inner child me’s dreams.

Review on Friendsgiving - It was fun. Everyone came late and we still had so much to make, even dropped a couple of things, so had to clean but overall we had fun so that’s what matters. The house felt cozy and are stomachs are beyond full.

10/10 - Busy day but a win for the inner child in me

Intuition - The things that feel like dreams right now will also be reality for me one day. I just need to keep going.