12/17 - Unshakeable faith.

Last night I started worrying about something out of my control and just slightly panicking about the worst things that can happen to me and my family. But for some reason, I can feel myself getting stronger. I was able to shut the thoughts down by just knowing I’m being protected and God also gives pain up to the point where a learning come out of it. I’ll always be okay. And even if the pain is too much to tolerate those are the days I get a little more strength added to my cup. And this is why I can handle anything that comes my way because I know it all always works out and I know God always listens to my prayers but only makes what needs to happen happen. I’m blessed and protected. It’s always worked out for me. Even when my mom was in the hospital, my mom was being protected and it was to only teach me how much she means to me, which I did take for granted for years. I used to think she was a burden but she is my strength. She’s the reason why I move in life the way I do. She’s my motivation and my everything. Without her, I have nothing. And God was with me when she was sick. Literally it was actually the least alone I’ve ever felt even in the most loneliest time of my life.

So overall, whatever 2025 has in store for me. I can got it and can handle it. Because God is protecting me and wants me to win. And this very statement is helping me stay in peace even when anxiety starts to rise and almost master the art of detachment.

Overall besides that, getting back into working and being productive, especially after all I did yesterday and today morning was just sleep. Trying to purge out the sleep. I also really wanted to go to the movies by myself. I love this new side of me, like I don’t think it’s sad to go to the movies by myself anymore. It literally feels like I’m going on a date with myself. Like I could go with other people, but it just seems so fun to do by myself and just enjoy my own company.

Another thing - The closer we get to making vision boards, I realized I literally did some things just because it was on my vision board and I knew I just had to make it happen. I almost didn’t care about the hows. I knew I’d figure out the hows somehow.

9/10 - Feel stronger mentally and overall chill day, just wish I was a bit more productive but I think it’s also the end of the year slump

Intuition - This mindset shift is going to take me far and this was literally the missing piece having understanding my self worth. That I am protected and everything will always work out even through the good and bad.