1/25 - Mourning change.
I hate change. But I know I can handle it, it takes a couple of days to adjust but just the discomfort of change always gets to me. It always has, idk if it’s a weakness. I’ve tried to reframe it as change means magic, but it also feels like a loss of something. And I think I always need to mourn the loss of change first.
Will I ever be excited for change? Without mourning the loss?
Besides that, woke up and cleaned everything because my friends were coming over and did my 10k steps.
I started Sex in the City and am honestly astonished by how everything is still SOOOO relatable. Like every single thing they talk about as relationship problems. Idk why this was so eye-opening for me. Because until now, I was convinced life had just become like that because of dating apps. But in the show it was always like that. Is that just what happens in your late twenties? Was it just a phase in life? Or was it normal for white people and now South Asians are just catching up to it because of dating apps?
Either way. It was relatable. Okay I like how she writes her columns. Thoughts on me writing my blogs like them. lolol.
I saw the new version of Sex in the City over the original. Lol I always knew about it but never was allowed to watch it growing up because obviously the title. And for the past couple of years, I started watching everything classic. I finished Sienfield, How I Met your mother, Friends, New Girl, Breaking Bad, and now Sex in the City. My way of almost bridging my cultural gap.
It’s a hybrid culture thing. Growing up we only saw Zee TV and indian channels because that’s all our parents watched, that now along with keeping up with the current stuff, we’re also bridging the gap with old stuff. Old songs, movies, and shows.
I hadn’t caught up with one of them for a while, so did that and gave her the rundown of everything going on. She did the same.
Then the other two showed up with flowers, so we can make bouquets. I ended up ordering Taco Bell and after we ate we all made bouquets for each other, and then just chilled in my room. The goal was to have a day of peace and just relax instead of being overstimulated. There was no drama. Just genuine conversations.
One thing I’m forever grateful for is the friendships that god has given me. It’s never felt forced. It’s always felt like they were mine to begin with. And that’s how every relationship in your life should feel. Like it’s meant for you.
10/10 - Very grateful for my friendships
Intuition - It’s healthy to mourn loss to truly be ready for change and accept it.
