2/3 - No validation needed

Day 3 of being hot, healthy, wealthy, and succesful and I think the high is over. I’m back to being grounded. I decided to sleep on the whole getting on dating apps thing and that’s where I was like needing validation is a test. It’s the absolute wrong direction. It’s almost like now that I’m hypothetically hot, healthy, wealthy and successful I almost needed validation that everyone else see’s it too. And that is wrong. That is giving desperate. And back to my point from yesterday it’s giving not my highest self and almost insecure. No matter what all the fullfillment should come from me. The moment I try seeking validation from someone else that’s the moment I’m losing myself. And it IS slippery.

I’m not mad at myself though because I feel like it’s past of overnight success. And then being grounded is also part of it. It’s like what you see in movies where they think they’re soo happy to realize that life’s happiness is actually found in the small moments,

Don’t get me wrong, I still want what I want. In fact, I “have” it. But now I need to reconnect with myself. I never need to explain myself to anyone. Neither do I ever need anyone’s validation.

I am proud of myself. I am enough.

Am I still ready to date? Yes, I think so. I’ll put the intention out there in the world. But I am not going to go chase it. It’s just the energy I need to carry with me that I am confident and “open” to recieve.

I’m getting stronger at believing my dreams as I’ve already achieved them, and the fear of the unknown or the how is completely going away. I’m just trying to show up as that person.

I woke up and got ready, which honestly I raraely do. I don’t put on makeup unless I’m going somewhere, but I know a rich a famous version of me would always look presentable and I feel more comfortable with recording myself randomly whenever I have makeup on.

I had to take mom to an appointment in the morning, and then we decided to go to a cute coffee date. One of my goals is to show my mom the world. So why not start now? I can take her to fancy places in Chicago too. I don’t need to wait for a plane ticket to make it happen with the “energy”.

And then after coming home went to the gym because a successful version of me does go to the gym. Came home and did my 10k steps too while working.

I’ve been practicing this on a guy friend but I now refuse to pick up a call unless I’m free. I will not go out of my way to stop what I’m doing to talk to a guy. I’m practicing my boundaries. Just like I wouldn’t pick up a girl’s call unless I’m actually free or if it’s urgent.

Overall, I need someone to fix this website. Idk if I should just do it or actually get someone to. But the answer is always that I am so specific on my wants that it always ends up being me.

10/10 - Cute date with my mom, gym, and everything. Overall was a wholesome day.

Intuiton - Need to work like my dream person too. Mentally I’m there and I’m super close but need to have the day to day like her too.