2/4 - Sick + choosing my dreams

My body just shut down today. I woke up with intense tooth pain, it’s definitely inflamed, and then had my laser appointment and literally thought I was going to faint from all the heat. Came home and my body was super soar from the gym. I could barely eat and everything just hurt.

All I felt like doing was curling up in bed and either watching Sex in the City or napping. Didn’t really feel motivated like the day before.

I also feel all the love in the air. There’s definitely something, but I’m going to ride it out. This always happens. Right when I’m on the verge of going full on with my dreams (in fact, I found a journal from 2022 that said this too) there’s like a sudden need/urge for a love interest and just giving attention to the love interest derails my whole plans. Not this time. Idc if I’m single my whole life. This time I’m choosing my dreams. That’s what the rich and successful version of me would do. I’ve worked way to hard and gone through way too much mentally to throw it away with a slight planet transitional pull. It’ll pass. My dreams are above it all. If that current love interest is truly meant for me, they’ll be there when I have my dreams because they’ll be a frequency match for that too.

I’ve always cut down calling my friends at the moment. I just need to focus. I can’t let anything come in my way or anyone’s energy distract mine. If I don’t think they’ll helping me grow, I need a break from them.

7/10 - Sick and down but am feeling head strong, so it’s not a day wasted.

Intuition - Me choosing my dreams isn’t delaying me finding my person. If anything it’s bringing me closer because it’s that version of me that has it. The more I choose a love interest over my dreams the further I’m pushing my person from entering my life. Everything and everyone is just a distraction. My dreams and my person are directly correlated. And there is no mistake in this.