2/19 - Releasing tension/feelings
Woke early toady to drop mom off to work, and then decided to just work from a coffee shop. At the coffee shop, I decided I was having a lot of anxiety around “getting the etsy business done” because then that let to a lot of expectations. So instead of that, I’m reframing it and adding it to my routine to work on my etsy business. Even if I was super successful, I would never just stop working on it, and making it a part of my routine lifts the pressure off and treats it like the title “etsy business owner” tasks.
It’s no longer dreading because I know exactly what I need to do since most of the work is already done. And surprisingly I already started seeing views come to the page! But I also didn’t realize how much spam was on etsy. Like an insane amount, and tbh I actually almost fell into the first spam trap but realized quickly it was spam.
After working on it for about 2 hours, I started to get tired and hangry, so ordered a chicken sandwhich. Literally haven’t had a chicken sandwich in sooooo long, felt like I was eating for the first time. I’ve been craving a lot of food lately so need to start checking things off the list.
As far as the guy stuff, the anxiety is gone because now I know we’re not compatible and I also stalked him to figure out his weakness, and just know he’s not my person. So the anticipation is gone and I’m back to focusing on myself.
At the coffee shop one of my friends just texted me how I was doing, and idk what came on me but I told her everything about being upset on Sunday. Literally, I can’t be mysterious even if I tried. Idk if this is a blessing or curse but I just always have to say what’s in my heart. At least I sleep in peace because once I express it stops festering, so lol idc if it does harm or not. I feel like it just makes me real and authentic, which I like at the end of the day.
After working on Etsy, I worked on some work stuff, and then came home and had meetings for a couple of hours. My coworker and I were both just talking about how frustrated we were and felt like the job was just a means for a paycheck at this point.
During my break, I ended up taking a nap because I was so drained from all the brain work and that’s when the dude’s mom called. Lmfao we sent his mom the birth chart just for the plot, and already told my mom we weren’t compatible.
That got me to do my own chat gpting and found out that the person that would be the most compatible with me based on the lifestyle I want is Capricorn, which explains why I keep going back to N. Apparently their birthday needs to be inbetween Jan 5-15. And tbh I’m going to actually try this because I do feel like I get along with Capricorn personalities the best.
After that just chilled with mom and did my 10k steps. Going to work a bit before bed and my bedtime routine. Lol adding castor oil pack and mouth taping to the routine.
8/10 - Calm day overall so felt thankful. I also turn 27 in exactly 3 months… crazy.
Intuition - I like how I’m just moving like I am everything I want to be. It feels like a step in the right direction.
