2/20 - Protected by the universe

I was supposed to get something today and it didn’t happen. I’m a little upset but for some reason, I still have a lot of faith that there must be an underlying reason for this and I know God and the universe has my back. I feel the trust in the universe/god get stronger even through uncertainty.

That is where my highest self is - let's go of stress because she knows the universe is always in her favor.

Anyways, I woke up and started working on my Etsy business. Like I said yesterday, I decided to remove the deadline and make it part of my routine. My shop views are finally slowly increasing even though I have zero sales yet, but I still don’t feel defeated because this has been my idea for over 3 years now, so like I also said before. It feels mine.

I need to start adding other things in my routine again too like the getting ready in the morning, creating content, editing content, and writing on substack. Feels like a lot but I know I got this. Everything is slowly and steadily moving in the right direction.

I had a call with my boss today lol, and I was not scared at all. If anything from my confidence I could see that he was scared. As he should.

I also had a checkup for my wisdom teeth surgery, it’s still taking time to heal but I finally learned how to clean stuff with a syringe when it gets stuck in the holes. The appointment ended pretty quickly, so decided to go get bubble tea. It was okay.. I knew I shouldn’t have gotten the fruit one.

After coming now, mom and I went to the Hanuman mandir. I actually love going with her, it’s like a mom and me activity and I love the energy in the mandir. It feels like an energy boost. And we got really lucky today there. Hoping god hears my prayers.

Idk what’s happening but I’ve been thinking of N for the past few days. When I heard about the potential of someone else working out, I kind of freaked out because it almost felt like “it wasn’t going to be N” which came out of nowhere. And my tolerance for people is really low now, like anyone that doesn’t align with future me is a no.

It’s been almost 2 years. At this point, I’m just asking god to let me move on. But I’m also not ready to date again. So like I need an answer with this situation.

I couldn’t get all my steps in because lol my neighbor was knocking saying I was walking too loudly.

On the other note, the media is getting scary again, but trying to ignore the noise and remember it doesn’t affect me. The universe is on my side and I will show up as my dreams.

8/10 - Wholesome day with mom besides the little scares at the end of my day

Intuition - The universe is on my side. Things are unfolding when they need to, and I am protected.